it has been a long, hard week for me and today wasn't getting any better. curtis works sunday, monday, and tuesday from 4:30 p.m. to 6:00 a.m. (good thing 4 days off makes up for those dreaded 13 hours shifts) and he has school all day monday through friday...that basically leaves me to take care of mason by myself 80% of the time which is tough!! lately mason has decided to scream when i try to feed him baby food, refuse to take naps (he has always done this but it has gotten even worse), and he fusses all freaking day!! all of this finally pushed me to my limit and tuesday night i had a complete breakdown which resulted in curtis leaving work for about 45 minutes to come home and get me back on my feet. after lots of encouragement and convincing that i'm really not a bad mom, i got my composure back together and pulled through the night. last night curtis and i got in a little argument and i yet again got a little angry with him this morning while also giving myself a pity party for all the things i wish i could have at this point in time (obviously not counting blessings instead of sheep like i should be). mason continued to be impossible throughout the morning and i just wanted to crawl into bed and cry for the rest of the day...too bad being a mom requires responsibility and a paycheck requires going to work. luckily work went well and i had forgotten about the troubles of my day and i headed home in a somewhat good mood. when i walked in the door, there waited a single red rose with a note sitting on the kitchen table. ahh. the effects love can have on a person :) my week suddenly got a whole lot better!
now to start counting those blessings again...i pretty much have the best husband ever.
he is SO considerate...he always thinks of other people before himself. always. (this makes me look extremely selfish). i hate that when i am so angry with him he makes me laugh. i love that he knows me better than i know myself. i love that he lets me cry on his shoulder. i love when he gets off work, crawls into bed and puts his cold feet next to mine. i love that we are sealed together forever.
i love that he is my best friend.
i love you curtis!
I am so sorry you had a difficult week and didn't feel that you could call me. Please think of me when Curtis is at work. We are well versed at taking care of little ones who will not cooperate. Even just a phone call to settle your head and soul can do wonders. I love you and want you to feel loved even though I am a terrible VTer.
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